je n'ai pas oublié

you don't need one word to talk to me

2007-07-30T22:32:22Z

Hello, hello ♥ Today is Monday, blah, but let's try to have a good day anyway!

I uploaded a new song for download on the sidebar. It's called King of Silence by Cibo Matto. Lately, I've really been just LOVING Cibo Matto, they are my newest crush So if you get a chance, download that song. It's my favorite. It reminds me of my boyfriend for some reason. I'm not sure how to explain Cibo Matto really, I'm not even sure what genre they are.

Speaking of weird music that I like, I also uploaded a Kahimi Karie album for my uncle Sal, but if anyone else wants to download it, feel free to check it out here. It's a megaupload link. It's Kahimi's K.K.K.K.K. album, but only disc 1. It's really a great album, I love it very much. Kahimi Karie is a Japanese lady who moved to Paris, so she sings in French & English, it's so cute. Her funny Japanese-French accent. The music is pop, it's very YUKI-ish, so check it out.

I'm afraid that's all the presents I have for now. As for other things going on... Well, there isn't much really happening I've quit Victoria's Secret, so I don't have to work there anymore. I was looking for some new places to work, and there are two potential winners for my employment. One, and the most likely candidate, is Panera. They seem nice there & the atmosphere seems pretty chill. They also said I can only be a cashier if that's what I want. The other is the Sears Portrait Studio, but I'm not sure about them. They won't give me as many hours as Panera and the job seems much harder... I'd have to pretty much be a photographer, so I'd take pictures of people and then sell them to them. It seems really tough!

I was having some sad times last week, but this is a whole new week and the problems of yesterday are gone. Things are looking much better, if not, evening out to "not so bad." Well, that's all for today.

qu'est-ce que tu veux que je te fasse?

2007-07-28T01:44:55Z

It's been a while since my last post. My paid account expired today, which is too bad but I don't really need one anymore anyway. I hardly update.

Anyhow, these days I'm not home very much, so I'm not on the computer very much. Jon has internet but instead of it being hooked up to his computer, it's hooked up to the Xbox (of course). He doesn't like to switch the cables around, so we never use the internet there. I'm becoming a frequent visitor over there, I even moved some clothes there. It seems like I hardly sleep in my bed at home anymore at all, but I wouldn't say I live with Jon. I'm just... a very very frequent visitor. I think that me moving in would be strange for him, probably. I don't know if he wants that. I wouldn't mind so much, except it'd be a longer walk to work

Things have been going really well with us though, I really have no complaints. There is no drama, minimal problems. It's so wonderful

I'm getting a job soon, maybe Panera or Sears Portrait Studio... Wish me luck.

too much fighting on the dance floor

2007-07-17T21:01:48Z

Psh. This sucks. My parents are back, and there has been nothing but drama since then. They made my brother & I fight when if they had just left things alone, we would have eventually resolved things. Now my dad's worried because I am not motivated and don't like college. Who likes college? He's pressuring me to take classes this fall and get my shit in order. I don't want to.

I want to crawl in a hole.

Jon's mom was also in town for a couple days, so we didn't get to see each other for two days. That about killed the both of us, lol. I'm glad that things are going well with us though.

gotta take the power back

2007-07-08T04:55:05Z

Man, where to start? I've been out & having lots of fun these days, gotta live it up before the 'rents come back home. They're coming back on the 16th of THIS month, gah I'm not all about that. I mean, I'm glad to see them again, but living with them is going to be very strange... I hope that things won't really change, that I'll stay over at Jon's however much I want and they will just have to shrug and go with it. I really hope they don't make me come home every night~ but knowing mom specially, they might

Didn't do much on the 4th, but I did go see the fireworks with Mr. Lover Face & Brad's family. It was fun to hang out with them, Jon even made some shrimp. We also watched Star Wars, I think... The next day was complete laziness, I think.

Despite my job troubles, things are going pretty fabulous still, so that's good. My brother came to town yesterday with his girl & her best friend. I'm not sure what they were doing, I wasn't at home when they got here at all. I saw them a little bit on Friday, and a bunch today. My brother was kind of mean to Jon when he came, it was weird. My brother's never usually a jerk with my boyfriends at all, but I guess my boyfriends are not usually older than me and driving my dad's car when he's not around, haha. My brother had a BIG problem with Jon driving daddy's car, but dad knew about it and even thought it was funny that my brother was being so paranoid about it.

Wow, and now some ~~friends~~ people are acting strange. It's been a bloody stupid day...

Ooh, I forgot to mention that goodbyetokyo is my new gaming journal. I just started it, so there isn't much there.

andrew is in my shower right now

2007-06-28T03:04:17Z

My horoscope for today:

You continue to be so sweet and gentle that you can lose yourself in the relationships that rule your life. It's time to let your partner know what you are really feeling. Although there's no need to go overboard, you don't need to be afraid to express your needs. If you don't let others know what you want, they can't know what to give you.

I'll be sure to keep that in mind.

why don't you tell me one of your biggest fears?

2007-06-26T04:42:58Z

Well, now I'll talk about how I feel about this whole rejection business. Don't worry, it's nothing crazy. I'm actually relieved about it, to be completely honest. The thing that upset me the most about that email was that they addressed me by my first name only, that doesn't show like... professional respect. My last name, Miss Alina, something like that at least. It's too casual otherwise. Hell, I don't know that lady, I'm not going to send her a letter and address her as Karen or whatever. Oh well, it's really not a big deal.

The thing I feel the worst about is having spent all that money at Iowa State for art supplies, housing, food, etc... I bet my parents are disappointed, even if they are being supportive. That's my real only regret, letting them down. The only thing that makes me think, "I wish I could have done better," is when I have them in mind. But really, I don't feel so bad about it if I don't think about them. Hell, I tried. That's all I can really do and I did my best. Well, I suppose that grade-wise I didn't do my best, but content-wise it was all there. It's my fault, I mean, the GPA was 60% of the judging for the graphic design program. I personally think that's bullshit and that it should solely be content based, but I don't run the university and they probably know better. I just wish that if only they'd judge me on something that had to do with graphic design, like the things I can actually do and I'm good at, I would have had a better chance.

Enough about that. Now I have to decide what major to switch to when I transfer to Iowa.
1) English
2) TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language)
3) Art something (I could continue to pursue graphic design with a less prestigious major)

I somehow feel that the CORE program at Iowa State sucked out my love for art classes. The whole time I was in those things I HATED them. I hated the teachers; I hated how pretentious and snobby they were, like the fact that their program is good went to their head and they're completely full of it. The whole time I took Design 102 I was either angry or COMPLETELY apathetic because I could care less about making shit out of paper and building doorways. Fuck that, I kept on thinking. I actually loved Design 131 because that was the drawing course, that actually improved my drawing skills. I feel like I got something out of that class, and possibly because I had the least pretentious teacher in the whole faculty! Seriously, she must have been hired by mistake. Design 183 was a complete joke/waste of time. I hated that class and got nothing out of it. They say you get out what you put in, but really... This was a joke.

So, I may give up design forever. I could see myself becoming an English teacher, I mean, when I think back at it, in high school and even before that, all I wanted to do was become a writer. But I'm better at design than I am at writing, so I felt I should pursue what I was best at instead of what I might like better. Also, you should probably enjoy the classes that are required for your major, right? I mean, I had a lot of fun taking English 105, I loooved that class. I also loved my Anthropology class (and was in love with my teacher, haha). My philosophy class wasn't so bad either. The classes you hate are probably things you should steer away from...

they're too pretentious anyway

2007-06-25T23:23:44Z

Dear Alina,
I regret to inform you that on the basis of Core gradepoint average, portfolio, and essay review, you have not been admitted to the program or programs of your choice. A thorough review by the faculty took place. Selection was based on scholarship, review of studio work, and the essay.

Advisors from each department within the College of Design are available throughout the summer to discuss alternatives within the College or in other programs in the university. We strongly suggest that you contact your advisor to set up an appointment. We will make every effort to help you arrange a satisfactory program of study leading to the most timely graduation date possible.

If you still wish to pursue the program you applied to, you have the option to improve and resubmit your work, and/or to repeat courses to improve your gradepoint average and portfolio, prior to the Spring 2008 review. Please discuss this with your advisor.

While the outcome of this review undoubtedly is disappointing to you, there are many programs of study in and out of the College that can provide you with rewarding educational and professional opportunities. We stand ready to help you plan a program of study that best suits your educational goals.

Sincerely,

Kate Schwennsen, FAIA
Associate Dean for Academic Programs

this is really fun

2007-06-25T00:48:41Z

I'm really into these meme things lately.

Start off by picking your 10 fave recording artists without looking at the questions behind the cut. (In no particular order for me.)

01. Jamiroquai
02. Belle & Sebastian
03. Pixies
04. GLAY
05. Ladytron
06. David Bowie
07. The Smiths
08. Arctic Monkeys
09. Franz Ferdinand
10. The Strokes

Q. What was the first song you ever heard by #2?
The very first song I heard by B&S would be... Dear Catastrophe Waitress, I bet.

Q: What is your favourite album of #6?
Haha, I was just talking about this with Tom. I don't have a favorite, but I like "Heroes."

Q: What is your favourite Lyric of #7?
Hmm... "Good times for a change. See the luck I've had can make a good man turn bad. So please please please, let me get what I want this time." from Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want.

Q: What is your favourite song by #9?
OH man. I looove Franz Ferdinand. I think my favorite song would be...This Fire or Cheating On You. Those are way cool and remind me of when I saw them live.

Q: Is there a song of #1 that makes you sad?
Well... Falling makes me kind of sad because it reminds me of unrequited love and a certain somebody I had feelings for at one point while also thinking he would never ever like me back. (I was wrong though, yay.)

Q: What is your favourite song by #8?
This is no contest! My hands-down favorite song by Arctic Monkeys is A Certain Romance because it's so witty and true.

Q: What is your favourite song by #10?
I love Reptilia because it reminds me of two people I love.

Q: What is your favourite album by #8?
Their first.

Q: How did you get into #5?
I heard them on the soundtrack for the movie Party Monster and liked that song Seventeen.

Q: What is your favourite song by #4?
Wow, I don't think I have a single favorite. I really love Itsuka and pretty much ANYTHING from their ONE LOVE album.

Q: Who is your favourite band member of #1?
Hah, I have to go with front-man Jay Kay.

Q: What is a good memory concerning #4?
Hm, anything by GLAY has happy memories with it. They're really way too many. I just remember the summer and being just happy without worries.

Q: What does #9 remind you of?
It reminds me of going to Chicago with my dad, having a great time. Also Tara & Jon for some reason, since they both like Franz too.

Q: Is there a song by #3 that makes you sad?
Hmmm... No, Pixies songs NEVER make me sad, haha.

Q: What is your favourite song of #1?
Oh, don't do this to me! I think my favorite song is... Space Cowboy, I just love that one.

Q: How did you become a fan of #7?
I grew up on The Smiths, man.

Q. What do you like to do while listening to #6?
I don't think there's a certain thing I like to do, possibly just sit there and sing along. I like to shower when I listen to David Bowie, I guess.

Q. Which of the 10 has influenced you the most?
Hmmm... Jamiroquai has been one of my favorite bands for a long, long time. But GLAY really played a part in my teenage years, making me outcast-ish and such, haha. I don't know.

Q. Which artist makes you the most happy?
Jamiroquai & GLAY always always always make me happy. ALWAYS.

Q. Which artist makes you the most sad?
Belle & Sebastian for sure. Some of their songs and even just the melodies are sad.

Q. Which artist makes the best dance music?
Jamiroquai for sure.

Q. Which artist have you liked the longest?
I grew up on The Smiths, Bowie, & Pixies, but I feel like Jamiroquai was the first band I ever really took an individual interest in. I've liked them since I was in primary school (4th grade).

Q. Which artist have you liked the shortest?
Ladytron, 'prolly.

Q. Are there any artists you will still be listening to in 20 years?
All of them, I don't see why my love for any of these would stop in twenty years.

Q. What are you listening to now?
Hah, I'm listening to Jamiroquai right now since I've been listneing to the soundtrack for Planet Terror WAY TOO MUCH lately, haha.

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goes to show you never can tell

2007-06-22T19:10:54Z

1.What's the last mistake you made?
I didn't clean when I was supposed to so it just turned into a big mess.

2. Is the sun shining?
Hm, not very much today. There was a thunderstorm earlier.

3. Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?
For sure.

4. Do you like text messaging?
With my sweeties, yes~

5. Are you having a good/bad hair day?
Looks pretty good today.

6. What was your last expensive purchase?
I bought Guitar Hero II with the guitar~ that was kind of expensive.

8. What are your plans for later?
I'm hanging out with Mr. Lover Face when he gets off work.

9. Is your cell phone fully charged?
Surprisingly, it is.

10. Is there any drama within your life?
Hm, maybe teensy bit, but mostly not.

11. What is a song they need to stop playing on the radio?
I never listen to the radio, I hate it. (Except KRUI.)

12. Are you content with life right now?
Life has never been more glamorous and fabulous for me~ ♥♥♥

13. Does anyone like you?
I can think of a few people.

14. What did you do for new years?
Nothing exciting, I can't even remember.

15. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?
Nope, but maybe someday.

16. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I do oftentimes if they seem nice.

17. Ever done a random act of kindness?
Surely.

18. Spell your name without RSTLNEAOUI
Um... I can't.

19. Last curse word you said was?
Not that I really vividly remember, but it was probably "damn."

20. Ever been in the middle of a love triangle?
Eh, this one time in high school.

21. Are your lips chapped?
Nope, they don't get chapped too often.

22. Do you own an ipod?
Nope, it was stolen :(

23. Did you have a dream last night?
I can't remember.

24. Are you mad at anyone?
Not particularly mad, no.

25. Who is the randomest person you know?
Eh, random is an overused word these days.

26. Have you made an igloo before?
I made an igloo out of sugar cubes in primary school once.

27. Done any spring cleaning lately?
Haha, no...

28. Anything bothering you?
My house is dirty and messy~ ugh.

29. What are you looking forward to?
Tonight ♥ & every day (until July 16th...)

30. Did you wish for anything last night on 11:11?
Nope, I was watching Road To Perdition with Mr. Lover Face.

31. Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?
No, I don't like it.

32. Put your ipod on shuffle whats the first song?
I'm just putting iTunes on shuffle, since I lack an iPod. Coffins + Cradles Theme by Brendon Small..

33. What jewelry are you wearing?
Three rings (one on my left, two on my right), two silver bracelets on each arm, and a necklace with a ring on it.

34. Ate any exotic food lately?
Hm, not really.

35. How many contacts do you have on AIM/MSN?
Thirty on MSN, and forty-two on AIM.

36. Are you easily amused?
Not so much.

37. Can you lick your elbow?
No...

38. Do you know this song we stay fly no lie you know this song?
...? What?

------------Number 2---------------

[One] What is your natural hair color?
Brown~

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
(Assuming this is for facebook) My room.

[Three] What's your middle name?
I don't have one.

[Four] Your current relationship status?
I have a little love ♥

[Five] Does your crush like you back?
Yessss~ and I've never been happier about it! ♥ I'm a lucky girl.

[Six] What is your current mood?
Kind of tired and sore.

[Seven] What color underwear are you wearing?
White & pink with cherries on 'em.

[Eight] What makes you happy?
Hearts all around~ ♥ Lotsa things.

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
A number of things...

[Eleven] If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
I'd go with a tiger.

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
Nope.

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Video games! Hehe.

[Fourteen] What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
China Girl by Bowie, 'cause Jon was singing it this morning.

[Fifteen] Who did you copy and paste this from?
Lady Katie ♥ muah~

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
I don't know anybody with my birthday.

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
Three days ago? I don't remember, that time I was jealous and mad.

[Eighteen] Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Not by myself, only in choir.

[Nineteen] If you could have one super power, what would it be?
Either being able to manipulate fire or to be able to multiply so I could do three things at once.

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Face in general, I guess? I don't know.

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from starbucks?
I hate Starbucks.

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
Haha, as soon as it went up it wouldn't be a secret anymore, would it?

[Twenty-three] Favorite colour?
Gray, brown, pink, black, blue... I don't have a favorite!

[Twenty-four] When was the last time you lied?
Yesterday, probably.

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Sometimes I enjoy giggling at Drake & Josh on Nickelodeon.

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
I'm drinking orange juice! It's good for you~

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak another language?
Español & Français.

[Twenty-eight] What's your favorite smell?
Baked goods~ ♥

[Twenty-nine] If you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
Bittersweet

[Thirty] When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
Just now ♥ Mr. Lover Face dropped me off at home before going to work.

[Thirty-one] Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
Heh, a couple times. It's not as glamorous as the movies make it seem.

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
I'm thinking about romantic movies because of the previous question.

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing?
I should be changing clothes and cleaning the house.

[Thirty-four] What was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
The College of Design people rejecting me. But I'm not upset/angry anymore.

[Thirty-five] How often do you pray?
I never pray...

[Thirty-six] Do you like working in the yard?
UGH, no!

[Thirty-seven] If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Something Italian... I don't know.

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around your crush?
Yes, certainly. I'm more sweet with him that I am with anybody else ♥

[Thirty-nine] Name one song that reminds you of an ex?
Turn to Stone by ELO, hehe.

'cause baby, it's you

2007-06-16T00:13:28Z

Things are good today I got a lot of stuff done, so now I don't have that lingering feeling of "the dishes must be washeeeed~ they are piling up~ oooooh." I did the dishes, I cleaned the cat litter, I cleaned the bathroom, and I did laundry.

Heh, while I was doing laundry, I stumbled upon some items that aren't even mine. I dunno why that makes me feel happy Just washing and folding my boy's shirts is a happy task, almost like a fun secret. You can pretend that you're not in school or nineteen or anything crappy, just that you're cleaning the house and washing your sweetie's shirts.

I wish I didn't have to go to school. I don't like it and I'm a bad student. I know I need to go in order for me to have any kind of a future, etc... I know. I know all about that. But I don't have to like it.

Voice Post

2007-06-05T06:13:30Z

it'll all come to you someday

2007-05-04T23:24:39Z

Well, it's official! My first year of college is over. That was fast, huh? They were certainly weird times, and there were so many other things that made it strange. I think if I had to sum it up, I would pick "lonely times." I did get friends eventually, but still... with my family being far away it made some times lonely. Well, it doesn't matter now because it's over!

June 16th (or something like that, I have to double-check) the letters of happy acceptance/sad denial are sent out from the Design people. I have mixed feelings about it, but I am not fearing it to the max as I was earlier in the year. During this second semester, I was completely fearing that I would NEVER be accepted at all, it was bleak. I was completely down-and-out about the whole thing, had no real hopes... But I have come around! I DO have a chance, I mean, I'm applying, right? That gives me a chance. They accept 60 people out of about 120, so I have a fifty-fifty chance of getting in. Also, it's not all about CHANCE. I also have talent. I mean, my core GPA isn't the most super and wonderful thing it could be (for which I am fearful), but I think my portfolio is really great and my paper (once I write it...) will also be great! I do consider myself a good writer, better than average at least. So if my portfolio AND my essay are both super, but my GPA isn't so great, that still gives me a good chance of being at least one of the last people to get a spot. I'm hopeful!

Please wish me luck. Even if I don't get in, I won't feel so bad because I do feel like I worked to my potential.

If I'm looking forward to anything, it's going to be doing nothing. No assignments, readings, quizzes, projects, bullshit... Woot! Not until August, at least. I have some hopes for the summer, but I am afraid it may be a repeat of "lonely times." I do have a scheme of getting a kitten though, so we'll see. I'm also going to Boston, so that should be really the highlight of the whole summer. Tomorrow I'm going back to Iowa City, so I'll hang out there for uh... a month until I have to go to Boston in June. Then July 14th, my parents and I are driving back to Iowa City from Boston (fun times) for the rest of the summer.

We'll see how things go, I guess.

maybe i should bust a move instead

2007-03-25T03:19:51Z

I'm so bored. And hot.

1. Spell your name without an E,S,H,I,M,A: Ln...
2. Are you available? No, sorry.
3. What’s your favorite number? Eight.
4. Favorite color? I don't really have one. Grey, blue, red, black... Those are good.
5. Least favorite color? Eh... No colors really offend me.
6. What are you listening to? Right now? Jamiroquai, one of my favourite bands ever. (Scam, to be specific.)
8. Are you happy with your life right now? Hm, I don't know. There are always things in my life that I am happy about, just as there are bad things. I'm usually happy with things.
9. Favorite subject? Eh... right now, English or computer science.
10. Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie/AE? Hahaha. No.
11. How do you make money? A lot of whoring. Just kidding, I don't make any money.
12. Are you outgoing? Hm, I would have to say no.
13. One word to describe you? Odd.
14. Do you like yourself? Sure, but sometimes I'm too mean.
15.Do you own big sunglasses? Nope, I wear glasses so I don't own sunglasses~ they are useless to me.
16. Where do you wish you were right now? Hm, I wish I was... in Boston with the 'rents.
17.What should you be doing right now? I should be doing my DSN 102 section drawings, but you know how it is. I hate it so I avoid it.
18. Do you have a crush on anyone right now? Nope, sorry, I'm not exciting.

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: With soap, yes.
Can you do a cart wheel?: I haven't tried in YEARS. I think I could.
Can you touch your toes?: Yup.
Can you whistle?: Nooo, just sometimes by chance I manage a tune.
Can you wiggle your ears?: Nope, that's weird!
Can you wiggle your nose?: Yes, who can't?

THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: Psh, that's silly.

THE DOES:
Does hair loss run through your family?: I think my grandfather is bald, but not my dad... I don't know, but I really don't have to worry about it too much.
Does your car get good gas mileage?: What car?
Does your family have family picnics?: LOL! We're not teddy bears. So, no.

THE HOWS:
How did you find out about Facebook?: Saw some kids at school using it, I think.
How much money do you have on you right now? One ten dollar bill, six ones, one dime, one nickle, and three pennies... so $16.18 total.

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with?: I was watching Jamiroquai vids with Tom earlier.
Last thing you said out loud?: "If I was taken for a day." (I was singing Jamiroquai's Manifest Destiny).
Last thing someone said to you?: "Bye." - Dad

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: According to my comp, it's 66 F.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: La Fuente, a Mexican place last Tuesday night with Dad, David, & Tom.
What was the last thing you bought?: I bought two cups of ramen, a granola bar (which Tom either has with him or ate it), and some Pom juice tea thing.
What was the last thing you had to drink?: Pink lemonade, which I am drinking right now.
What was the last thing you watched?: Jamiroquai "making of" video things.
What was the last txt message you received?: "Sr. i was gonna go see TMNT and i thought u & tom would want 2 come along. but then i got invited 2 a bbq. it isnt that great though." - Andrew

THE WHOS:
Who is your newest friend you added to Facebook?: Sweet Natasha~
Who was the last person you IM'd?: Josh, I was asking him about the LAN and such.
Who talked to you on the phone last?: My dad and I just got off the phone.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: Um... a hair-styler guy...
Who was the last person to leave you a comment on Facebook?: Chris left me some link.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Yup, during the whole naked picture fiasco.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yeah, I'm not sure what about though.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yeah, but only a few few times.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: No, I don't think I've ever cried because a boy didn't want me.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: I ALWAYS cry when I get sick these days, I feel crappy and nobody takes care of me.
Do certain songs make you cry?: I don't think so.

HAPPY SECTION:
What makes you happy?: MUSIC, Jamiroquai & GLAY (to be specific), Tom, Tristan, kittens...
Do you wish you were happier?: Yes... I wish that going to school made me happy.
Is being happy overrated?: Not at all!
Can music make you happy?: More than anything else ever could.

HATE SECTION:
Do you actually hate anyone?: I really try to refrain from hate.
Have you ever been on a hit list?: I'm not that memorable.
Are you a mean bully? No, I don't think I bully people at all, I try to be nice.

SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low?: Hm, I don't think so.
Do you believe in yourself?: No, I don't think I do.
Do you wish you could be someone else?: Nah, as much as I may be odd and crazy, I am still happy.

LASTS:
The last person you talked to in person?: Tom, I think.
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Herbal Essences orchid & coconut milk.
Do you have mental breakdowns?: No, I don't get frazzled over things too much.

CURRENT:
Current mood: Kinda hot & bored.
Current hair style: Um, I dunno what to call it.
Current desktop pic?: GLAY.

baby, you are in the city

2007-03-10T04:26:46Z

So, now I'm in Boston! Crazy, huh? I skipped out early and came to Boston on Thursday: I came with my brother and his girlfriend. It was good to see my family, though being with them again makes me remember how nice it is...not to have to live with them anymore. Mom talks sooooo much, she just talks and talks constantly all the time anywhere we go. Dad is great, you know I think my dad is the best person in the world. My brother thinks that my romantic life will suffer because I think my dad is the best person ever; but I know I won't get a guy like my dad, you know? That's not something I'm shooting for in my romantic life, so I don't feel like it will suffer.

Anyways, today we went to a mall downtown. It was very big... and we were there ALL day! I did buy some great panties from Vic's secret~ of course! I can never resist buying panties, they are my secret love. I wanted to buy a super super cute nightgown thing so I can wear something sexy when I sleep at Tom's, but it was expensive. I also bought some cute Nine West shoes, very girly. They are flats, so they are comfortable and cute. Then, I saw that there was a Sephora store! So I was excited and went to buy the tokidoki line! I bought some eyeshadow & lip gloss, it was sooo cute and so limited edition that I had to get it. The eye shadow is so super great, I will wear it tomorrow. Then I bought some chocolates and went back home.

My parents' apartment is very great! It's expensive... The walls are super cute, the front door is yellow. It's so great to have a big bathtub and a clean toilet. It's also great to have a big fridge with a gallon of milk, etc. So far, it's nice. But I might get crazy soon. I'm eager to see Tom again too.

why did i pick graphic design?

2007-02-22T20:06:51Z

Gah, I have been SO super busy! This week was super stress to the max x300. I had a design 102 project due on Wednesday, that took a long time. Well, it didn't take a long time as much as it was just really annoying to make and super hard. It was basically taking a 3-d object and reconstructing it out of paper. It was awful, and mine turned out awful. Too bad, huh? Then, I had an English paper due on Tuesday, which I didn't work on until three hours before class. (I was buusssy...) It didn't turn out great, but that's okay, it's English class. I can afford to take a hit in that class.

Also, the computer science midterm has to be in before 3 PM today, so I did it yesterday after geology class. Phew~ It was a lot easier than I thought it would be! I got 350/400! I only missed five out of forty questions, woooo! To be honest, I didn't study, but I did okay. It's comp sci, it's easy. I'm not doing so hot in that class though, for some reason?

Ugh, I'm just bad at school in general. Too much of a slacker. I wish I could just start my own web design firm and be done with it.

Blaaaah.

et tout le monde s'est mis a danser

2007-01-23T23:49:11Z

Squee! My old Anthropology professor just made my day! Ah~ I missed seeing him quite some. I just ran into him after my English class, and he saw and remembered me! I had just come out of Ross, and he saw me and said hi, so I started talking to him a bit and he told me about his other classes. Oh, I missed him~ he's so dreamy. I was just thinking about him earlier today! I was writing a summary of an essay for English class and it was an essay about globalization- which was basically what Viatori's class was all about. Ah, anthropology 230... good times. GAH, why is the teacher so dreamy?

My English teacher is pretty dreamy too~ I have a thing for teachers, as I'm sure I've mentioned before. I kind of spent a bit of class today drawing my English teacher while listening to him describe what rhetoric is. It doesn't really look like him, but eh~ with practice I will get better at drawing people more to their likeness.

Until English class, my day was pretty blah. On a scale of one to ten, ten being good and one being bad, my day went from a... three to about a seven! That's quite a jump, and all because of my English class and professor Viatori. If animated hearts could float around a person, they would have been floating all around me as I walked back to my room from Ross Hehe, totally. As I was walking back in my state of super-happiness, I decided that I'm surely going to marry a teacher. How could I not?

but in ocarina of time he does this...

2007-01-22T07:07:04Z

HOLY SHIT! Today, I spent about 5 hours (FIVE HOURS!!!) playing Zelda Twilight Princess. WTF, right? Maaaaan, I don't know, I think Nintendo must have injected me with something that one time I randomly fell asleep in the park (they have agents all over the world). Oh well, it's not so bad, really. In the morning, I had a HUUUUGE urge to play Zelda Ocarina of Time, but sadly I left my Nintendo 64 in my Iowa City house, so I couldn't fulfill that urge. HOWEVER, when I told Tom about this necessity, he bluntly pointed out that he OWNS a Wii and Twilight Princess... SO, why not fulfill urges to play a Zelda game through those means? The other possibility was to go out and BUY the Gamecube Zelda collector's edition which includes Ocarina of Time... but obviously, it was much easier to walk to Tom's room and play Twilight Princess for three hours straight. I did play some Mario 64 too, but I don't remember the exact times for that. Ah, video games. Surprisingly enough, I did manage to get some homework done tonight. Really stupid and easy dumb homework for computer science, but homework none the less.

I even created a character on Animal Crossing: Wild World named Link, he's blonde and wears a green "tunic" and everything. I get hit with obsessive waves... I think Tom was right when he said I have an addictive personality. I should go to bed, buuuut... maybe I'll play some AC and hopefully catch something good on Adult Swim. Laters, kids!

i'm running a dojo of coolness

2007-01-20T06:54:20Z

I hate it when there's no Adult Swim programming on Friday nights~... It bores me. Also, I left all my movies in Tom's room, all I have to watch here is Scrubs season 1, Silent Hill, and A Tale Of Two Sisters. None of which I want to watch right now. Maybe some Scrubs for later...

Man, I'm a little hungry now. I'm gonna go grab something to eat. Ciao ciao.

j'ai embrassé un garçon que je ne connaissais pas

2007-01-18T21:09:08Z

Wow, I'm back to updating semi-daily~ amazing. I think it's the layout. Could be, huh?

I don't want to go to my English class... Sure, the teacher is completely dreamy But it's all the way in Ross and it goes from 3:40 to 5 PM... Kind of a drag, huh? I was thinking the other day... I really have a thing for my young teachers! Well, in primary school I loved Mr. Hill and he wasn't that young... I don't know what it is, but having to listen to someone who knows what they're talking about must spark my love interest, haha. Some of them aren't even very cute, I just have a thing for geeky guys, haha.

Anyway, I'm thinking of getting a haircut Exciting, huh? I'll probably end up not getting it, but I do kind of really want to do SOMETHING to my hair. It's getting quite long. I just need ideas! I don't want to dye it though, it's too long for that now, it would be very expensive and a hassle to maintain. I kind of what some hair extensions, maybe. I don't know. I think I'll let it keep growing though. I don't really want something very crazy, just normal. Eh, I probably won't do anything, haha.

Okay, I gotta do some English stuff before class starts. Ciao ciao!

i must believe i can do anything

2007-01-17T22:24:51Z

Well, design class today was dumb. (When isn't it, really?) I really miss my 131 class (drawing), I miss Melissa and Ben and Gillian~ We had a critique day with another 102 class that meets at the same time. It was soooo boring, three hours of talking about the damn collage things! The only thing that kept me awake was the freeeezing cold in the Armory. We didn't even have to turn them in, it was dumb.

Sometimes I think that it won't be so bad if I don't get into the graphic design program. I mean, I look at the design teachers I have right now and I just feel like... blah, they are completely lame and full of shit. I don't want to be like them at all. Well, the people I'm talking about are all architecture people, so at least I'm not going into that. Who knows?

Gaaaaaah Why do I live in this lame floor? My dorm mates are so lame, really they are. None of them are fun, I haven't found a single one that is even potentially cool. Gail is awesome though, I do love her. But the rest of the people here are so -lame-. I'm making myself an honorary Elwood member, 'cause Carpenter is full of lame girls (except for ROOM 1472! Haha~). But in Elwood people are crazy and play loud music and nobody cares and they always keep their doors open and they all ask each other out for dinner, it's really... social, I guess. I'm not a social person, but I can appreciate something like that and see how it would be nice. But here, Gail and I don't like talk to anyone on this floor and they don't know us, etc. The girl next door just came over and asked me to turn down my music because she can hear it through the wall. It's barely four P.M., quiet hours are like... at nine, or something. But maybe she just doesn't like Jamiroquai, who knows? In any case, I didn't fight her or anything, I turned it down. It was just a lame moment, it made me make this face I can understand people's music being annoying, of all the girls on this fucking floor with NO MUSICAL TASTE, I can understand people being annoyed by loud music. Trust me.

Sometimes I think I'm a teensy bit of a music elitist. Only a teensy bit, right? I need to stop thinking that what I listen to is top cool (even though it is~). I really kind of judge people too much for what they listen to, I think. If someone likes a band that I like, they shoot up in the hierarchy of coolness. But c'mon... what I listen to is awesome, haha.

um yeah? no, i'm sorry, i didn't hear a word you just said

2007-01-16T04:15:08Z

I always do this. When I have a long weekend, I leave my homework for the last two hours of the day. Oh well, nothing to really do about it. I have to print out some stuff though, blah. I only have to type a short summary for an English assignment and some dumb question thing for Design 183. Nothing too time-consuming (yet, I still haven't started it...) I decided that my time was better spent taking a shower and reading e-mails~ haha.

I've made a lot of progress on my Animal Crossing game on the DS ! Tom got an upgrade on his store, so when I visited he already had Nookington's. Yay! My character got a new hairstyle so now she's really cute I love her. Also, some new punk squirrel moved in~ oooh. What the hell, I'm writing about my Animal Crossing game... ~ I'm a loser

Oh, today we tried to actually go out and do stuff, but it didn't work out, haha. We went to the Dollar Cinema (or whatever) at the mall, and it happened to be that today it was 50 cents for the tickets. We bought tickets to see The Prestige and got some popcorn and stuff. We had a pretty big group, and some old people behind us were bitching about how we talked loudly and were too tall~ so they moved (Jerks). Then, while the previews were playing, the projector broke and the guy couldn't fix it. So they cancelled the showing and gave us "rain check" tickets Stupid, huh? Tom and I were just playing Mario Kart the whole time anyway, lol. I bought some new laces for my red Chucks (lookin' good), and then we went back to HQ (read as: Tom's room). Then Ian tried to take us to a Chinese place that ended up being closed (nice), so we went to the Pita Pit (yum!).

It was not such a bad day though, I had fun. Now homework time!

put on your dancing shoes

2007-01-14T03:34:06Z

Isn't this hot?

That's Alex Turner, for those who don't know. Just about one of my favorite people ever. I think that Whatever People Say I Am, That's What I'm Not was the best album of 2006- hands down, kicked ass. Arctic Monkeys are just so great, it's kind of a shame that the bassist quit though.

I'm bored, I think I'll go busy myself with... something, who knows.

everyone that you kiss, do they cease2xist?

2007-01-03T23:22:23Z

A dumb love meme thing I'll fill out because I'm bored, quite frankly.

LOVE SURVEY
You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!!

[01] Is there anyone you like at the moment?
Of course.

[02] Have you ever given or been given roses?
Roses? No, I haven't given OR received roses. Or any flowers of any kind, I think.

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
I... hate romantic movies. Oh! Except The Wedding Singer.

[04] How many times have you honestly been in love?
I think just once so far. But I'm not sure, maybe twice.

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate?
No, I don't really believe in "one" soul mate for everyone.

[06] Do you think that you should put your friends first?
I don't think you should think of it that way; just devote time and love to ALL the people you love.

[07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
Not yet...*crosses fingers* Eh, it's inevitable, I'm sure.

[08] What do you think about long-distance relationships?
They're 10000x harder to maintain than regular relationships. Good luck with that!

[09] Your thoughts on online relationships?
They aren't really real, you know? All you can hope for online is frienship, anything else is fantasy.

[10] Would you rather date someone five years older or five 5 years younger?
Um, dating someone 5 years younger than me is very illegal. Besides, I dig older men.

[11] have you seen one of your friends as more than a friend?
Yes, most of my boyfriends begin as just friends of mine.

[12] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater?"
Hmmm... No, not really. Things can't possibly be THAT black&white. But I'm sure that people that cheat are more likely to cheat again.

[13] How many kids do you want to have?
It depends, I don't know. Maybe two, maybe one.

[14] Do you usually fall for the right boy/girl?
Yes, usually I pick out the right people for me.

[15] What is your favorite color(s)?
Gray, black, red, blue...uh... I don't really have a favorite color.

[16] What are your views on gay marriages?
They should be legal.

[17] Do you believe that true love only happens once?
No way, it couldn't be.

[18] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, what would you do?
Adjust my hearing aid and then get confused about where I am and who died.

[19] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
Um. I don't know. That's a perverted question.

[20] What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
David Bowie's Be My Wife. C'mon, that was WRITTEN so I would play it at my wedding.

[21] Do you think that someone likes you?
I would hope so!

[22] Do you believe in divorce?
NO, I refuse to believe divorce exists. JUST KIDDING, of course I believe in divorce. People make mistakes and get confused all the time. Plus, people change. People have to try to be happy, I'm not against that.

That was a waste of time.

when darkness overcomes the heart, lil' slugger appears

2006-12-31T07:32:47Z

I've been kind of oddly missing school. Isn't that crazy? Well, honestly, it's not really school that I miss. It's something else, I'm not sure what. There's just something off about the last couple of days, I can't really put my finger on it. It's a kind of weird feeling... I don't know. Something is just off, I don't know what, but there's something going on- maybe it doesn't even have anything to do with me, but I'm feeling something.

Eh, maybe I'm just crazy. I have been very bored, sometimes when I'm bored, I tend to make things up in my mind.

I hope nothing bad happens. I just have a feeling something bad is going to happen, but I don't know what. I wonder, what could possibly go wrong now?

Damn. And I was having such a good feeling for the new year.

if i like it, i do it

2006-12-23T23:56:46Z

I was just discussing (over MSN) what bands I'd like to see live still. I think that deserves a list. I'm just going to list UK/American bands because that's actually possible.

GO!
*Jamiroquai
*Arctic Monkeys
*We Are Scientists
*Death Cab For Cutie
*The Faint
*Hot Hot Heat
*Editors
*The Strokes

Too bad Jamiroquai isn't touring again until 2008! Ugh.